love my red hair to the maxxxxx :D

i am so lack of sleep uhs! i am so tired!

few days ago with brothers at club NANA!

"i wanna go club na na na~"

my sister :D

yawns~ i am tired.

but will do a proper update soon i promise! (;

i just simply love my hair colour(; got this colour done one week ago over at kovan... ..

i spend my off day (thursday) at home sleeping.. surprise lei, i never go club. cause, I AM TOO TIRED!!!

and finally, i gonna get my back tattoo done on sunday! yea, my artist finally back. once my back tattoo is done, i will go tattoo my left leg, and re-do my right leg tattoo.

don't ask me about why i want to get my body inked and do i regret. come on, everyone has it own thinking, so let it be (;

spend a bomb recently...

masks i brought from SaSa..

product from Cynara blogshop. you guys can get it from her blogshop too. (http://86shop-ladyfirst.blogspot.com)

recommend you guys this two product from her blogshop(:

this is freaking nice, i swear. it taste like white grape (;

can be found in watson.

but lastly, i still refer SK ll .( my all time favourite!)

i am going for h.o.l.i.d.a.y soon! yipeeee (;

PS: IMPOSSIBLE = I M POSSIBLE (:

awww. i.can't.sleep! tell.me.what.should.i.do?

so, randomly post this up : MEANING OF THE NUMBER OF ROSES..

1Rose- Love at the first sight , you are the one .
2Roses- Mutual love between both , deeply in love with one another .
3Roses- I Love You , I wanna be yours.
9Roses- An Eternal love , together as long as we live .
10Roses- You are perfect ; our perfect bonding love .
11Roses- You are treasured one , the one I love most in my life .
12Roses- Be a steady , you are part of my life .
13Roses- Secret Admirer
20Roses- Believe me , I am sincere towards you .
21Roses- I am devoted to you .
24Roses- Can.t stop thinking about you , 24 hours everyday .
36Roses- I'd remember our romamtic moments.
99Roses- I will love you for as long I live .
100Roses- Harmoniously together in a century ...
101Roses- You are my one and only one .
108Roses- Please marry me .
365Roses- Can't stop thinking about you , each & everyday .
999Roses- Everlasting and eternal love .

if.someone.gonna.give.me.this..

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sawadeeka. finally, my laptop is back home :D so, i will update often(..) if.. i have the time. (promise)..

my last week is a very very busy week. running 8 shows a week, is fun but(..) TIRED!!!

(taken at BJ thai)

everyday after work go chiong til morning 5plus 6plus..  i am gonna to be insane soon. (~_~)

(ah kim papa)

yesterday after Oasis, headed down to Wantosek for my breakfast. (^.^)  cabbed home and sleep .

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see my super shag face? totally lack of beauty sleep! (0.0)

slept at 7plus am in the morning and force myself to wake up at 1plus in the afternoon cause i have lesson at 4pm! normally i will wake up at 4plus in the afternoon..

meet up Alvin, he send me off to class, then he went to find his friends(..) after an hour later he came to pick me up..

went to eat as i am very very hungry..); shop around then went to compass and collect my laptop.

afterthat, he send me home. prepare and off to work. (~__~)

today was over at sing thai. in the middle there was fight going on(..) police came in to open due to some reason..

finish work went to eat with alvin, ne zha and his gf.

ok, i am going to sleep now. super tired!

ps: clara, PLS update your blog^^

this post special dedicated to my father. i am so sorry daddy.  );

my daddy is the greatest on earth, cause i am afraid to take lift alone, (i got stuck inside before..) so, everytime when i reach home during mid night, i will called my dad, see if he is home, then ask me come down fetch me..

just now, my dad came down to fetch me. i am talking on phone.. my dad never notice i am on phone. while inside the lift, he ask me have i eaten, i continued talk on phone.. second he asked, i replied : " can't you see i am on the phone?!" and, my dad even apologize..

and the someone talking to me, scolded me.. see how good was my dad? he woke up during sleep come down fetch me, concern me yet i shout at him.. i apologize to my dad once we are out of the lift. my dad look at me, smile and said :" this is the first time you knew your wrong.."

i was stunt. i told him sorry again for shouting at him, not respecting him at all. he said, : "is alright, girl."

i almost teared..

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since young, he pamper me like a princess. he always grant me(in term of what i want), i always take it for granted. even i yearn for the star, he will get it for me.

everyday, even went he is outside, with friends or doing his stuff, he will called me and ask, :"have you taken ur lunch or dinner?" at times, i will find it irritating, and hang his called. now, i felt so bad about it..

everyday, when he see me come home during morning, i alway saw the disappointment in his face..

he told me, what he expect from me is very simple, he never force me back to studies, as he know i hate to studies. all he want from me is be a good girl, by not making him worry about me daily.. don't always go chiong, go work in morning with my korkor. that all(..) nothing more then this.

it's so simple, yet i can't even apply to it. i felt so sad..

i asked myself, trying to put myself in my daddy shoe. i ain't a good daughter of his. he has done his part of bringing me up as a daddy, yet i am always so wildful, stubborn, attitude with him.

i still remember, when i got my first tattoo done by age of 13, he found out, yet he said nothing(..) when he saw my back full of tattoo, he also said nothing..

when he found out i started to smoke at the age of 15(..) he told to cut down on my daily cigarettes.

everytime when i break up with my bf, locking myself inside the room, he will alway come in to cheer me up.

everytime when i was in bad mood, he let me yell. without saying a second word.

everytime, when i was sick, he will be home taking care of me 24 hour until i wake up(..)

i remember, when i was young, during primary one. i was running high fever of 39, he brought me to hospital during mid night. the doctor is going to give me a injection, i was crying and crying, he also teared.

i was a bad girl. treating my dad like this. even he is in bad mood, he never ever yell at me before, only me yelling like a mad women everytime. throwing things here and there, he will always clean up my mess.

i really thanks god, for having such a good daddy.

sigh, after thinking of all nonsense i did once before.. i really felt so bad and guilty..

Hello everyone, miss Elaine is back here updating her blog.. bet everyone miss me blog right? hehe(:

how you spend ur Halloween night? my Halloween night hitted off at sabai sabai. was so cool, everyone dressed up. ok, actually i dressed up like a witch, in the end, i changed. hah! so, Ms devil and Ms bunny was in club together. more photo uploaded on facebook(;

will update soon(;

okay, my precious laptop still haven discharge from hospital ); so don't blame me for not blogging about my recently life..

I though..

you was so true to me.. end up i make myself a fool to fall deeply for it. i never though of us being so close within such a short timing, but it did works out. too those people who think of i am referring to Luis, i am sorry. it's not him. he is long forgotten in my heart.. but with memories linger around.

i cried when i spoke to you on phone. why? i never cried so badly before. i never expect you to say this when everything to me are so sweet and alright. thanks boy, i learned my lesson... Full stop..

I had enough..

Thanks baby clara for cheering me up last night. we had a crazy night at Sabai Sabai. took alex martell out. two of us keep drinking, i know baby was also in a mix up feeling. i just simply hate all this feeling, why can't i meet someone better everytime? why must we always tear for the person who hurt us so much?

I wanna run away..

somewhere , where my true love will begin..

i had enough, i gonna be crazy soon. i have learn my lesson ); ):

i am going crazy! my stupid lappy is down again, i just brought it less then a month ok! fcuk, i lost everything!! so currently i am using my dad lappy to update my blog. sigh...! _|_ damm shitttttttt!!!

will do a proper update soon when my lappy is back (;

PS: you lied to me once, twice. i am sick of it...

baby, this post is truly for you. i am truly sorry. I make you disappointed over and over again. but rest assure, i won't disappoint you again alright, after talking so much to you, i finally realise, i am in wrong too. i am too stubborn, i always don't heard your advise and got hurt in the end. end up cry all my sorrow to you. i felt bad too. i always said: " if i headed for clara advise..." always, if . but i never did. now, i am gonna heard her advise.

you will still be my best girl friend no matter what happen. i swear, i will try to be a good girl friend of yours. we knew each other for 10years, and we gonna to be best friends still down 50 years.

i miss those times together. we can even quarrel over small little stuff, so nonsense but we still so close. now? we rarely talk out heart problem to each other, no more afternoon crazy shopping, no more dancing like siao zabo with each other, no more going over to each other house and disturb. see, everything has gone. still remember you wrote the letter for me? i am so touched. but things just change.

i am sorry baby, truly sorry. you play a important role in my life. cause, you never fail to cheer up me up when i am sad, you can let me vent all my anger on, you can accompany me go wild, crazy, shopping whole day. awwwww, i really miss time spending with you, hope everything will be back like the past.

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i could not sleep at all. i found out something which hurt my heart deeply, is like a gun shoot a bullet in your heart... hold on to my tears, as i promise i won't drop a single tear for him anymore, it's not worth it. crying over a jerk......... seriously i am so lost in my life, lost of words... in life there's up and down, but this is too much. how i wish fairy god mother can grant me three wishes.

firstly i will wish for happiness, i just want to be happy everyday, stress-free of love, money! secondly, fairy god mum please erase that jerk off from my mind completely. thirdly, fairy god mum find a prince for me!! (:

(i know there's no fairy god mother in this reality world, but i always encourage myself as i know i can make all this wishes come true.)

i miss those time back..

i want those real smile back, those sweet loves, those happiness and laughter from my heart... awwww, see the differences? sigh.... ):

i miss you, seriosly..

went for lesson today, late again.. sigh! help teacher to fix her blog skin. went home and hurried down to Orientus. work today was super slack, play pool, sing song. hah! jimmy bring us down oasis and sabai sabai, party til dawn again.. shag!

Jb later!

PS: " When deep injury is done to us, we will never recover until we forgive... forgiveness does not change the past. but it does enlarge the future."